I feel like the only thing on my mind is finding that someone. No matter how much of a front I put on to other people it really is all I think about. This has been one hard year for me. A whole year and a half and no one wants to date me??? It isn't like I am looking for someone but am I not datable?? I don't even know. The longer it has been the more I feel like I will not find someone worth it.
I don't want to be an old lady with 10 cats alone in an apartment. I don't want people to not notice when I die... Do you know what I mean?? Like anyone is actually reading this. I think I am the only one who actually reads my blog. It is pretty sad. And I have told many people many times to check out my blog.
God am I that much of a loser???
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He wanted me to be his little thing on the side while he was dating someone else. That's what he said and then when I told him no he tried to lie to get what he wanted.
What. A. Dick. Why is it okay for guys to do that... or why do they think it is okay. It is not. And it's not cute. It just shows that they are stupid and immature. I don't want that kind of life. To be the one on the side. Because I know that there will be the "oh I like you more than her"'s and the "I'll leave her soon and we can be together"'s, well not this time buddy. I have learned that a guy will say whatever he can to get into someone's pants. It's no longer flattering.
I am so done with this bull. Why is it so hard to find someone that likes me...? Actually likes me for who I am not just because they want to sleep with me? Why is it that every guy that I meet thinks that that is all I am good for?
I don't "flaunt" myself around and I don't put up with the crap but yet guys still think that it can happen. Please tell me what it is so I can STOP DOING IT!!!!
I am so ready for someone to sweep me off their feet. I want to care about someone again without having to worry about whether they are going to hurt me or not.
On another note I am thinking about going back to my old high school, Washington. Maybe I will have more friends again. Right now I only have a few friends and I don't see them most of the time. It is very upsetting. And maybe I can meet a guy... not just to date but atleast to be interested in. I don't know. I guess we'll see where this goes.
What. A. Dick. Why is it okay for guys to do that... or why do they think it is okay. It is not. And it's not cute. It just shows that they are stupid and immature. I don't want that kind of life. To be the one on the side. Because I know that there will be the "oh I like you more than her"'s and the "I'll leave her soon and we can be together"'s, well not this time buddy. I have learned that a guy will say whatever he can to get into someone's pants. It's no longer flattering.
I am so done with this bull. Why is it so hard to find someone that likes me...? Actually likes me for who I am not just because they want to sleep with me? Why is it that every guy that I meet thinks that that is all I am good for?
I don't "flaunt" myself around and I don't put up with the crap but yet guys still think that it can happen. Please tell me what it is so I can STOP DOING IT!!!!
I am so ready for someone to sweep me off their feet. I want to care about someone again without having to worry about whether they are going to hurt me or not.
On another note I am thinking about going back to my old high school, Washington. Maybe I will have more friends again. Right now I only have a few friends and I don't see them most of the time. It is very upsetting. And maybe I can meet a guy... not just to date but atleast to be interested in. I don't know. I guess we'll see where this goes.
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